This is not going to be my favourite post ever, on the contrary I would imagine. But while things were really taking shape with SweetArts (my short film) I got an email on Saturday morning from my producer telling me that she was starting another job this Monday. Not the best way to start the weekend.
I can write a long story about how she had promised me yada-yada-yada but I won’t. The situation is this: I lost my producer, again, and with her I lost a long list of potential crew members, my DoP and some really great locations for my film. Needless to say that I am very frustrated and sad about this but it seems like 2008 is not the right year for my film.
I also like to think that things happen for a reason and that somehow this will turn out for the better – even though it seems a far stretch to imagine just that at the moment.
In stead of rushing myself into stress trying to find a new producer right now, I have decided to take a break from it. Also because I am sick and tired of it at the moment and I don’t want to think about it for a while. I will pick things up again in the spring of 2009, I need some time away from it and also – the weather and light in the spring will be much better for my film. And honestly, with six Bill films in the cinema in 2009 – how can it not be a great and inspiration filled year.
I now suddenly have 8 days of holidays on my hands, I feel like going to a place with some sun where I can get over the disappointment and where I can recharge my batteries for the next round of SweetArts.
And yes I was in such a bad mood on Saturday that I skipped my TV-2 concert. I recall finding myself in the cinema watching High School Musical in stead. I know, it’s too embarrassing for words but blame it on the temporary loss of mind I had.
Giving up is not an option though and I try hard to hold on to the above quote.
Update: Just got an email from Sony (camera department), while I thought I had lost them too, they are incredibly understanding and supportive and there still is a good chance to cooperate with them on this in some way. That brightens my day a little.
I’m thinking of the words JFK spoke:
We choose to go to the moon. We choose to go to the moon in this decade and do the other things, not because they are easy, but because they are hard, because that goal will serve to organize and measure the best of our energies and skills, because that challenge is one that we are willing to accept, one we are unwilling to postpone, and one which we intend to win, and the others, too.
I think you should look at (making) SweetArts in the same way.
Yeah, don’t let things get you down. I’ve had 4 years of Anii Horibilli – a positive attitude will see you triumph.
Chin up.
come down to Oz its sunny and hot!
every day the sun rises again to drive away the dark hous of the night.
2009 will be another year with new opportunites
Darn! But like you said, it will be okay…(ooit) I still believe one day I will see your movie :-) Now you’ll have more time to watch Daniel C!
Aw man, I’m sorry.
Sorry about that but I know you’ll get it done eventually.
Ingrid, I’m so sorry to hear this … it must be a huge disappointment. You have a good attitude though. Waiting until spring will give you a chance to put it aside and bring to it a new energy. And really, that’s a lot of Bill movies to be looking forward to.
I’ve gotta catch up on your life… off to read posts for the past few months!!
Thinking of you,
Kate
Drat drat and double drat.
Good idea to take a break. Pop it in bottom draw, start something else… remember it’s not personal, just schedules and the need to make money…
Ack, that’s really disappointing. Keep your head up high and hope for the best. That is the best advice I can give.
Thank you all for the nice comments. :)
I will indeed put the script in the bottom drawer and focus on some other things for a while. There is after all more in life than short films!
:-X just a big hug…
I don’t know what to say, actually. You’ve been so close. It’s a pity. But you never know why this happened. Maybe the best possible male actor will be available for a shoot in 2009. Chin up!
It’s all about moving ahead and you seem too have that in mind the best is yet to come!
Hi, I found you through Bloglily a while back and just read your lovely interview with her! Good luck with the film. I understand what you’re going through; I’m a screenwriter on break (the longer I’m on break the harder it is to get back to it) and my husband is a Cinematographer, currently shooting a feature in China. Few people understand how these last-minute crises can happen, but they do. I think you’ve got the right attitude and best of luck to getting SweetArts made next spring. I’ll be looking forward to reports on it!